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Just

If I’ve been invited to an event/ party/ gathering whatever at a bar, I expect the people who have organised it to be there to meet and greet the first people who arrive.Especially if I have been specifically urged and requested to get there at a particular time because there is a reserved area.Is thatContinueContinue reading “Just”

Tire Me

[Tirade of the tired]I am tired.Tired of madness,Tired of sadness,Tired of looking good,And looking bad.Tired of wanting,Tired of wilting,Tired of feeling like I ought to do something.Tired of feeling,Tired of feeling – like the world is against me/you/ us/ them/ humanity.Tired of debating the existence of God.Tired of badness, and evil.Tired of goodness, and truth.TiredContinueContinue reading “Tire Me”

Another Version of the Truth

Year Zero. New NIN album.It’s good. It’s urgent. It has a definite theme and structure to it.It’s also going to take more than one listen to get into. Sometimes the best albums do – ‘OK Computer’ by Radiohead took me a bit of time.Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah…I know I keep using NIN titles forContinueContinue reading “Another Version of the Truth”

Climbing up the Walls

Screaming at the top of your voice and not hearing anything. That’s a disturbing dream I have had before. Allowing myself to get so angry that I punch the floor and end up fracturing a knuckle. That’s almost ridiculous and teenage like.And not a dream.I’m not particularly known for having a bad temper. In fact,ContinueContinue reading “Climbing up the Walls”

I'm alright (you gotta go there to come back)

It’s the last day of school today for quite a few of the boys I teach. They’ll be moving on to bigger and better things (uni for quite a few).I think – for all the machismo – they will actually miss school. I’m not sure how many would admit that (especially in front of aContinueContinue reading “I'm alright (you gotta go there to come back)”

The End

This post is about my wonderful group of Year 11sI said goodbye to them on Wednesday last week.As a teacher, however cynical people may get, I do harbour a soft spot for everyone I teach. I’m not sure if that’s just me. I hope other teachers do. For all the difficult days, I spent aContinueContinue reading “The End”

Angry Chair

Sitting on an angry chairAngry walls that steal the airStomach hurts and I don’t careWhat do I see across the waySee myself moulded in clayStares at me, yeah I’m afraidChanging the shape of his faceCandles red I have a pairShadows dancing everywhereBurning on the angry chairLittle boy made a mistakePink cloud has now turned toContinueContinue reading “Angry Chair”

Eraser

Hate is a strong word.There are some people I hate right now.But they don’t know who they are yet.I was hoping it would pass. But I think I’ve got to go through it. Over the past couple of weeks I have been present to my ‘dark side’ if you will more than usual. In fact,ContinueContinue reading “Eraser”

Down in a Hole

Being around younger people makes me more aware of how I change.I feel that things don’t really change much. The ‘Rules of the Playground’ pretty much provide the basis for the ‘Rules of the University Campus’, followed by the ‘Rules of Working Life’. People are people I suppose.I’m still struck by how insightful young peopleContinueContinue reading “Down in a Hole”

Surfacing

Here are a series of rants. They reflect what I’m thinking at the moment. It’s pure opinion – as most blogs are – and opinions don’t make that much difference to the planet.Bear that in mind as you read.1) People who cannot control their swearing. There is a time and place. At the front ofContinueContinue reading “Surfacing”